Feeds:
Posts
Comments

Archive for the ‘enlightenment’ Category

Before I begin meditating, I say out loud the following statements, three times:

  • meditation is a metaphor for enlightenment
  • being still is a metaphor for wanting to be free more than anything else
  • ease of being is a metaphor for accepting everything as it is
  • paying attention is a metaphor for having no relationship to the arising of thought or the presence of feeling
  • These words were given to me by the shiatsu practitioner who inspired me to start meditating regularly. She has studied with Andrew Cohen, and these four statements are his instructions for meditation.

    Although I don’t know a lot about Cohen’s teachings, so I don’t know exactly what form of meditation he teaches, I am interested in learning more because these four instructions make so much sense to me. I’m glad that I looked them up and read more about their meaning (so far I’ve simply been saying them and reflecting upon them with my own interpretation). Lately, as with any prayer, mantra, chant that a person says over and over, I feel like I space out a bit when saying the words and the act has kind of lost its meaning. But in reading Cohen’s teachings online, I’ve gained the respect, interest, and understanding for these instructions that I need.

    The idea of letting everything be as it is = the state of letting go, not trying to control everything and anything, as I spend so much of my life doing. I so relate to this:

    When you experience ease of being, there is a profound release of a fundamental existential tension, which is the deep and often unconscious conviction that something is terribly wrong. (Cohen)

    I’m always so full of fear, practice catastrophic thinking, and am convinced that something is terribly wrong.

    I look forward to someday experiencing this:

    When you choose not to identify with the movement of thoughts and emotions, sooner or later you will have the profound experience of your own Self standing free from the mind—free from the compulsive habit of conceptualization and personalization.

    The thing is that today I actually let go for all of…I don’t know…five breaths (maybe). But, oh no, my ego couldn’t stay out the picture for long. I was so proud of myself for staying with the breath and nothing else that my mind instantly went to “good job”, “way to go,” “wow…look at this.”

    Today’s meditation ended with the entrance of my dog. The first chime had rung, and I was trying to concentrate on the sound of the chime until it was gone and then return to my breathing for another three and half minutes until the next chime. But I only got less than a minute in, when I heard Cheyanne scratch, scratch, scratching at my door. I tried to ignore her and stay focused, but because I knew I had very little time before she pushed that door open, I decided to finish up with om, shanti, shanti, shanti. By the middle of chanting om, Cheyanne was through the door and jumping on me. I tried to continue but was laughing at this point. She finally just sat down and listened to me finish my little chant, but she had such a strange look on her face that I couldn’t stop laughing.

    Such is life….

    Read Full Post »